X-My Heart&Hope2 diE

cheesegurlr @ 2005-02-22T21:11:00

2005-02-23T02:45:49Z

FIRSTS
First job: Movie Theatre in Pittsford
First screen name: Cheesegurlr...inside joke..
First self purchased tape:
First funeral: my grandma..but i dont really remember it..more recently my grandpa
First credit card: credit card = evil
First true love: art
First enemy: i dont really have an enemy
First big trip: hmm
First concert: Destiny's child and christina agularia(however u sspell it) in like 7th grade
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Eric Clapton/Johnny Cash

LASTS
Last big car ride: Tom's house to my House> January
Last kiss: 10 days ago
Last library book checked out:
Last beverage drank: Water
Last food consumed: corn, potatoes
Last phone call: tom
Last CD played: a mix
Last annoyance: some crazy that came into work
Last soda drank: pepsi
Last ice cream eaten: long time ago
Last time scolded: saturday
Last shirt worn: Dave Mattews winter tour '04
Last website visited: livejournal

I AM: 19
I WANT: to go to Canada
I HAVE: lots of things
I WISH: its pointless to wish
I HATE: going to MCC
I FEAR: the future
I HEAR: my parents being loud
I SEARCH: for who i am
I WONDER: what happens next?
I REGRET: a lot of things..
I LOVE: Tom
I ACHE: my ankle hurts
I ALWAYS: worry about things i cant change
I AM NOT: who my parents think i am
I DANCE: in the car on my way to work or school
I SING: all the time
I CRY: when i need to
I AM NOT ALWAYS: living in the moment
I WRITE: with angst
I WIN: nothing..i never win anything
I LOSE: everything
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: a vacation
I SHOULD: get my own appartment

'YES or NO:
x. YOU KEEP A DIARY:this thing online...but nothing else
x. YOU LIKE TO COOK: not really
x. YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: No

DO YOU...?
HAVE A CRUSH: yes(tommy*blush*)
WANT TO GET MARRIED: Yes
GET MOTION SICKNESS: No >> I LOVE ROLLER COASTERS!!
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: not really
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: yes and no. more no than yes.
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: very much so
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: umm brown?
BIRTHPLACE: Rochester

FAVORITES:
NUMBER: 18
COLOR: Blue
DAY:hmmm tough one any day that i can sleep in
MONTH: May
SONG(S): too many to list
SEASON: Spring
DRINK: good ol' h20

PREFERENCES:
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: cuddle
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: chocolate milk
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: milk
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: Vinilla

IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? No
HELPED SOMEONE? yep
BOUGHT SOMETHING? No
GOTTEN SICK? No
GONE TO THE MOVIES?No
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? No
SAID 'I love you'?: Yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER:No
TALKED TO AN EX?:No
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?:Yes
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: Yes
MISSED SOMEONE? Yes
HUGGED SOMEONE: NO
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? No...suprisingly
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? No

Would you ever:
1. Eat a bug?: depends what kind
2. Bungee jump?: maybe
3. LOSE IT?: lose what?
4. Kill someone?: no too messy
5. Kiss someone of the same sex?: yea
6. Parachute from a plane?: maybe
7. Walk on hot coals?: putt some pep in my step
8. Go out with someone for their looks?: surely it wouldnt be the main reason
9. Cheat on someone? noooooooooooo
10. Be a vegetarian?: yea, i could do it
11. Wear plaid with stripes?: only on opposite day
12. IM a stranger?: are'nt we all strangers?
13. Sing Karaoke?: nah
14. Get drunk off your ass?: probably...but thats not one of my goals
15. Run a red light?: yea
16. Star in a porn video?: noO
17. Dye your hair blue?: maybe
18. Be on Survivor?: yea!
19. Wear makeup in public?: isnt that the point of make up?
20. Not wear makeup in public?: sure, on lazy days
21. Cheat on a test?: err no
22. Make someone cry?: .....purposly? no
23. Date someone more than 10 years older than you?: y not
24. Stay up all night? only if it was in my comfy bed

its not a mistake if its always repeated

2005-02-09T00:05:32Z

You are 35% Sketchy

How sketchy are you?

..just going on and on about nothing..

2005-01-21T23:33:55Z

i randomly saw some pictures this girl took at like a bithday party or whatever and she was having such a good time and she was surrounded by all of her friends,and they were just being...themselves? and i think im really missing that as of late. i know i probably sound so redundant but so what. When people come home from college things feel "normal" again..to me atleast...and thats a really great feeling to me because i guess thats just what im used to?
I was thinking about the early days of high school(again) when all of us said we dont care about what people say, and when i thought i knew who i was,and when a huge sleepover was the highlight of my weekend... i remember when me julia and nina were really close, we would alternate houses every weekend haha. Sharing rides to movies...my mom would never want to take us but i always asked her anyways...
then people change. for the better? i dunno.....maybe i changed and everyone else stayed the same. for the better? i dunno.
cuz now...now its about the drinking and the sex and for some people the drugs..and i do care what people think and i dont know who i am..now i drive to movies, and we "dont do" sleepovers..only when its to crash after drinking cuz i cant go home.

im just feeling like i fucked up (as usual) and i let my parents down...in turn let myself down.
Im stubborn, thats what my problem is..i thought i had everything under control...what an idiot i am...ill live it down though....i have to prove something to myself

____________________________________________________________________________________

on a brighter note i found out Karrie gets paid more than me and if i remember correctly i think she just started like 3 weeks ago?!
What the fuck do i have something on my ass that says "will work for less" ?
For serious now.
but there have been some pretty funny people that come in..

OldLady: is that soft cheese?
me:ummm its fresh? if thats what you mean?
OldLady:no! is it SOFT cheese.
me: no, but i can heat it up for you?
OldLady: *walks out of the store*
...later i realized what the hell she meant she wanted like speadable cheese like brie or some shit....
NEWSFLASH: ITS SUBWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

Pittsfordlady: mmmmmk im gonna need 2 subs
me: aright, what kinda of breads are they on?
pittsfodlady: wheat
me: Oh, im sorry we dont have any wheat right now its still baking
pittsfordlady:..oh...well how long till its done?
me: about 30 mins
pittsfordlady: *walks out of store*

HAHAHAHAHHA some people i just dont understand... just get a different kind of bread dont let it ruin ur day?

that whole wheat and "soft cheese" really does get to people

make the best of whats around

2005-01-13T03:09:44Z

my Bday was fun, i woke up to it snowing!!!! yay! and it snowed the whole day. I went malling with Tom and then went out for dinner with the girlies.

Katie went back to JMU :(
but i still have people to play with!! :)

Me and Julia went to Bristol today and it was raining the whole effing time which sucked!
On the other hand, it was great cuz we had the place to ourselves, no little kids, no crowds...that was super awesome. I really fucked up my ankle though, i couldnt even walk earlier...it feels like i have a shin splint in my ankle...its so odd, so i have to get that checked out..

and im about to pass out im so tired so goodnight
:)

cheesegurlr @ 2005-01-03T16:09:00

2005-01-03T21:08:02Z

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Drink more beer.

Get your resolution here

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMEN

cheesegurlr @ 2005-01-03T15:54:00

2005-01-03T21:03:56Z

my birthday is in 5 days!!!
im gonna be 19 so ummm who wants to go to Canada?!

idooooo

cheesegurlr @ 2004-12-22T14:26:00

2004-12-22T20:32:02Z

1) Your gender: female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: straight.
(3) Single?: no
(4) Want to be?: nope
(5) Your birth day: January 8th
(6) Age you act: depends who im with
(7) Age you wish you were: 21 im with Ashley haha
(8) Your height: 5’7
(9) The color of your eyes: blue
(10) Happy with it?: yea
(11) The color of your hair: ummm blonde/red/brown? im not sure
(12) Happy with it?: yea its ok
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: right
(14) Your living arrangement?: home, share a room with my sister
(27) Your family: me, mom,dad, and sister
(29) What's your job: SubWay for now
(30) Piercings?: ears and cartiledge
(31) Tattoos?: blah
(32) Obsessions?: AIM
(35) Do you speak another language? No i suck at other languages
(36) Have a favorite quote?: "i have chicken on my finger and i just want to spoon"
(37) Do you have a webpage?: nope

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: I try to
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:no not really.
(40) Do you have any secrets?: doesnt everyone?
(41) Do you hate yourself?: sometimes
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: sureee
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: bite my nails..
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: you have pretty eyes
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:bête noire
(46) What's your biggest fear?: dying
(47) Can you sing: kinda
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:no
(49) Are you a loner?: ive become one, since no one is around anymore
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: probably
(52) Are you a daredevil?: hmm no
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: i hate my body,and i fear that everyone i love is going to die
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: depends
(55) Have you got a ?: ???????
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? strength:caring weakness: resentful
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: my stomach
(58) There are three wells - love, beauty, and creativity- Love
(59) How do you vent?: two words: music
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: yes
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: not taking school seriously
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: i really cant complain
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: not to take it in the butt...no just kidding...ummm....work first play later?
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: my face
(65) And least?: stomach
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: ehh
(67) Are you confident?: not really
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: shreck -the fun loving oger
(69) Do people know how you feel?: i think so,im pretty open with my feelings
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: i dont think so?

DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: no
(72) Do drugs?: no
(73) Read the newspaper?: nope
(74) Pray?: no
(75) Go to church? no
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: OF COURSE
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: yea, my bear
(78) Take walks in the rain?: nooo
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: if we dont get a long then y would we talk?
(80) Drive?: hells yes
(81) Like to drive fast?: yeaaaa

HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: sure
(83) Hurt yourself?: ....intentionally?-no
(84) Been out of the country?: CANADA!!!
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: no
(86) Burped?: yes i love gas
(87) Been unfaithful?: no
(88) Been in love?: yes
(89) Done drugs?: yes
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: no
(92) Had a surgery?: um, widom teeth count?
(93) Ran away from home?: yea
(94) Played strip poker: no
(95) Gotten beaten up?: no
(97) Been picked on?: sure
(98) Been on stage?: yes
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: umm no
(100) Slept outdoors?: yea
(101) Thought about suicide?: no too messy
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: no i like my sleep
(103) If yes, what is your record?: n/a
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: not ALL nite..but most of the nite
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: yes
(107) Slept all day?: close to it
(108) Killed someone?: no, killed a squirell once though
(109) Made out with a stranger?: noooo
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: no,what im not like THAT
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: yes
(112) Kissed the same sex?: ? no
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: welll...me and kt hahaha j/k noooo
(114) Been betrayed?: yes
(115) Had a dream that came true?: thats a no
(116) Broken the law?: who hasnt?
(117) Met a famous person?: yes
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: HEHEE SQUIRELL!!!!!
(146) Stolen anything?: lollypop when i was little
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: yes
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: yea
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: yes one.
(150) Considered religious vocation?: haha no
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: nope
(152) Bungee jumped?: no
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: no

CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: vans,Nike
(155) Brand of clothing?: express,H&M,Gap
(156) Cologne/perfume?: Love spell
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: always jeans, plain shirt.
(159) Wear hats?: yes
(161) Wear make-up?: cover up,bronzer,eyeliner,shadow,masacara
(162) Favorite place to shop?: wet seal,H&M,Express,hot topic
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: Vest from the GAP
(164) Are you trendy?: not really
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: nada

BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: Def do.
(167) Miracles?: yes
(168) Astrology?: yes
(169) Magic?: no
(170) God?: yes
(171) Satan?: no
(172) Santa?: no
(173) Ghosts?: yes, after watching that montel show.
(174) Luck?: idk
(175) Love at first sight?: idk
(176) Yin and Yang?: yes
(177) Witches?: no
(178) Easter bunny?: no
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: "i'll believe it when i see a leprican"ashley HAaHA
(181) Do you wish on stars?: no

LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: no
(183) Do you remember your first love?: yes
(184) Still love him/her?: yes
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: not at all
(186) What do you find romantic?: holding hands...how corny
(187) Turn-on?: good sense of humor
(188) Turn-off?: conceided, selfish,
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: never
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating someone who expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: flattered
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: def knowing someone
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: yes
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: yea
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: i dunno
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: eyes, sense of humor
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: dumbassness,
(207) What's the last present someone gave you? money i think?
(208) Are you in love?: YES
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: yea
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: nothing

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: haunted me?
(212) You wanted to kill?: stupid drivers
(213) That you laughed at?: dani when we yelled "swollen eye MY ASS" at the same time AHAHAA
(214) That laughed at you?: Kt and Holly when i fell ice skating
(215) That turned you on?: THOMAS
(216) You went shopping with?: Ashley
(217) That broke your heart?:n/a
(218) To disappoint you?: My mom
(219) To ask you out?:Tom
(220) To make you cry?:Tom
(221) To brighten up your day?:Tom
(222) That you thought about?:Tom
(223) You saw a movie with?: Ashley ,kt
(224) You talked to on the phone?: Tom
(225) You talked to through IM?: Ashley
(226) You saw?: my Dad
(227) You lost?: my Grandpa died...if thats what u mean by "lost"
(229) You thought was completely insane?:people who drive around here
(230) You wanted to be?: someone famous
(231) You told off?: idk
(232) You trusted?: i trust a lot of people
(233) You turned down?: idk

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: an hour ago
(235) Laughed?: an hour ago
(236) Cried?: two days ago
(237) Bought something?: yesterday
(238) Danced?: a while ago
(239) Were sarcastic?: DO I Ever STOP?!
(240) hugged someone?: last week
(241) Talked to an ex?: dont have one
(242) Watched your fave movie?: napPY DYNAMITE months ago
(243) Had a nightmare?: last nite
(245) Talked on the phone?: last night
(246) Listened to the radio?: this morning
(247) Watched TV?:last nite
(248) Went out?: yesterday
(249) Helped someone?: dont kno
(250) Were mean?:umm idk?
(251) Sang?: a little while ago
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: 2 days ago
(253) Said "I love you"?: Last nite
(254) Missed someone?: i always miss someone
(255) Fought with a family member?: suprisingly not recently
(256) Fought with a friend?: months ago
(257) Had a serious conversation?: today
(258) Got drunk?: Day b4 thanksgiving

cheesegurlr @ 2004-12-21T19:26:00

2004-12-22T00:35:53Z

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (Name of First Pet + Street You Grew Up on)
--> Amanda Elmwood
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (Name Of Your Favorite Snack Food +
Grandfather's first name
--> Oreo Glenn
3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (First Word You See On Your Left + Favorite Restaurant)
--> Region
4. YOUR EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: (Favorite Spice or Herb + Last Foreign Vacation Spot)
--> Oregano Maui
5. YOUR SOCIALITE ALIAS: (Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You First Partied)
--> peanut rochester
6. YOUR FLY GIRL ALIAS: (First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name)
--> D. Ro
7. YOUR ICON ALIAS:(Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen)
--> Candy Cane oil
8. YOUR DETECTIVE ALIAS:(Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Went to High School)
--> Kitty Brighton
9. YOUR SOAP OPERA ALIAS: (Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived)
--> Aubrey French
10. YOUR JEDI NAME: (First 2-3 letters of your first name + First 2-3 letters of your last name + First 2-3letters of your mother's maiden name + First 2-3 letters of your birthplace)
-->DROULAROCH....hmm?

SO COLdDD

2004-12-21T04:15:49Z

Okkkk lets start out by saying that it has bEEN FREEZING the past 2 days

NEGITIVE 2!

The girlies are back in town and thats been fun except for the me having to work part, but work = $$ so its all good
and im DyING tO gO SnObOaRdIng!!!!!!!!

tonite we did doghnuts in some parking lot just cuz we are THAT cool
we went to go see Finding Neverland with JohnnyDepp its was..meh i would have rather gone and seen Closer again.
good times
ICE SKATING TMRWW YAY

pictures...

haHA

VERY attractive i must say

awwwwwwww

i couldnt tell you why she felt that way but she felt it everyday...

2004-12-17T03:07:07Z

I saw CLOSER twice...its great, amazing,so everyone go see it.
Kt got back last week from vagina aka virgina :)
Julia and Ashley got back tonite :)
Bristol mt. is def suffering from the lack of snow which is sucky cuz i cant wait to break in my board...but soon enough will I go. If its this mild all winter im gonna be pissed.
I want to go see Spanglish tmrw nite, looks like something worth seeing....
I get to see Tom in like another week(ish) i havent seen him in 2 MONTHS...THAT iS WaAAYyyy to LONG, never again, once a month is already long enough...blahhhhhh

yep pretty boring...

p.s. save the drama for your mama...shut it.

Thats all...
oh and Ashley got RAZ and i love her

Night.

hahahahaha

2004-12-04T23:36:38Z


tom is love
brought to you by the isLove Generator

...ok that was creepy...how did they know!?

cheesegurlr @ 2004-12-02T21:16:00

2004-12-03T02:18:42Z

I am 34% evil.

I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com
MUAHAHHAHAHA

cheesegurlr @ 2004-12-01T13:23:00

2004-12-01T18:27:05Z

Convo with meghan:

beechbb914: cant wait to seeeee youuuuu
f P r A a U n Lk: can i sleep with u next time
beechbb914: maybe
beechbb914: hahah
f P r A a U n Lk: hahahaha
beechbb914: itll be you me katie and david
beechbb914: in one bed
beechbb914: a DORM bed
beechbb914: lol
f P r A a U n Lk: O BABY!!!
f P r A a U n Lk: i like a tight sqeeze
f P r A a U n Lk: err...that sounded dirty
beechbb914: hahah
beechbb914: then bring tom too
beechbb914: itll be a gigantic orgy
beechbb914: hahahahhahahahha
f P r A a U n Lk: not too tight of a sqeeze cuz then that means anal
beechbb914: hhahah
beechbb914: youre such a freak
beechbb914: hey im pretty tight
beechbb914: lol
f P r A a U n Lk: HAHAH!
beechbb914: are you trying to say that im anal sex?
f P r A a U n Lk: meghan when i make love to you its like making love to a butthole
beechbb914: hahahahahahhahahha
f P r A a U n Lk: wow what a great complement
f P r A a U n Lk: HAHAHAHA
beechbb914: hells yes
beechbb914: id totally fuck a guy if he ssaid that to me

...oh the randomness of it all.... a conversation about sleepovers turns into anal sex?

highlights of the week....

2004-11-28T22:06:32Z

It was so great having the girlies back in town again!!!
I loved seeing everyone, still cant believe how different it is from last year.
They have all left again but its all good cuz i get to see everyone again really soon (2 or 3 weeks) :) YAY

Alot of pictures.....

AWWWWW Me and Ash

Meghan and Julia :)

Cute Julia!

Kash and JULIAaaaa

Kt and Julia, "feasting"

HillAry and Me

watch out for THE CLAW!

yummy

Kt loves her chicken fingers

The girlies..

HAHAHahaaaaaaaaaahaha...interesting

Tony and Ash

HF-L girlies

kt is like... oh god gimmie the rest of that Malibu
as for meghan
she didnt even have any...she just likes to lick things?

cheesegurlr @ 2004-11-16T20:30:00

2004-11-17T01:33:02Z

i canged my Screen Name so you all better ADD me

cheesegurlr is no more....so 9th grade

now its f P r A a U n Lk

...if u dont get it then look harder

yay finally picturesssssss

2004-11-14T22:07:32Z

TaKinG Back SUnDAy PicS

HoLLy!!!

Meee...thats the thing they signed but u cant see it haha!

I think that was varsity

Adam-TBS

Adam and Fred

The uhh other guy...hahah

everybody was fucking everybody...

I call him ... Mr. Bowtie

...like people read the sign...psha

funfuntimes

"Fred you look so good tonite, i just thought u should know"haha

2004-11-10T01:14:45Z

Taking Back Sunday last nite!!! its was pretty awesome
Holly is the coolest and won tickets off the radio so we got to go to this acoustic thing at the radio station, we got to meet Adam and Fred, and he signed something...
Later was the concert at Harro East (where junior prom was hah!) we had to stand out in the snow, YES IT WAS SNOWING, for like an hour. ummm Funeral For a Friend, Varsity, Macbeth and someone else opened...the someoneelse and i think it was Macbeth, was MEh...but the others were really good. of course TBS was amazing.
Luckly me and Holly didnt getting smashed around too much but my butt was touched more times than i can count, and i was geting really sick of this girl who was standing next to me..Soooooo i kept hiting her so its all good. fun times.

pictures will be up soon, i got some good ones!
<3

nothingness

2004-10-29T23:46:15Z

Feeling pretty tired from work the past few days,
So i made myself feel better with some kind of frosty drink....ah Frappichino

No work tmrw, or sunday.

Bored outta my mind.

Does anyone want to go on a haunted hayride tmrw nite, ill drive.
(or do something)

At work today this girl I work with asked some guy if he wanted cheese with with his turd(tuna).....HA!

cheesegurlr @ 2004-10-27T20:42:00

2004-10-28T01:00:14Z

I was supposed to be going to Oneonta this weekend to see Ashley and Julia.
It was gonna be fun.
Tom was gonna meet me there.
Halloween was supposed to be awesome!!!!
But no.
Let down once again by the friend who has just about lost control of herself.

i'm worried
___________________________

Tring to win TBS tickets off the radio is harder than it seems
____________________________

My job hunt is over (for now) ......
...i now make subs for 6 dollars an hour

<double ew tee eff ?!?!>

...Oh siMple Thing wHere hAve yOu goNe....

2004-10-21T01:05:44Z

11/5- New Found Glory/Green Day/ Sugarcult
Turns out I cant go, I thought it was the 3rd...ill be in Hartford
11/8- Tacking Back Sunday
I really wanna go...any takers?

Anyways...looking for a job is a job within itself and im really getting frustrated.
On tuesday I had an interveiw at the gap, it went really well, really really well. But i had to come back for a second one tonite, and it was a group interveiw (not fun). 6 of us sat in a little circle and he asked all of us the same question but theres really only one answer to these tideous questions, so basically everyone was repeating the same thing over and over. Seems ironc because the company is supposed to be all about being personable with their customers, and there was definatly a lack of one on one. I left the interveiw pessimistic because I really dont think it went very well, but ill know if i got the job by this weekend.

I have to get my stiches out from my wisdom teeth wounds on friday, that should be fun.
I can eat most things now. Just sore.

My parents keep asking me what I want to do with my life
but what kind of question is that, really?...i get so mad when they ask me that
Im 18 years young, and I dont really give a shit if Im sitting around doing nothing right now. RIGHT NOW being the key words....
There are college visits lined up
I have an art portfolio that was completed last year
I have been looking for a job and had an interveiw all in one week
Im taking a class @ MCC
arrr suck me nuts

cheesegurlr @ 2004-10-17T16:57:00

2004-10-17T20:58:44Z

I got my wisdom teeth out.

My mouth hurts.

I get to take vicadon.

I have an interview at the Gap on tuesday.

Say You wOnt CAre

2004-10-15T03:14:31Z

so the other day i was thinking, wow i forgot about all these movies that i liked...
That turned into a list
(not in any particular order)

The Sweetest Thing
Napoleon Dynamite
Edward Scissorhands
Billy Madison
Clueless
Babe (yes the pig movie bitches)
Can't Hardly Wait
Big Fish
Supersize Me
Garden State
Punch Drunk Love
American Splendor
Willy Wonka and The Chocolate Factory
Dude Wheres My Car
Starsky and Hutch
Harriet the Spy
How To Deal
The Princess Bride
Man on Fire
Mean Girls
Girl Interrupted
Virgin Suicides

thats all i got so far

cheesegurlr @ 2004-10-07T09:05:00

2004-10-07T16:20:36Z

I'm so quitting my job at fruit and salad, it started out alright, Like ok, this is a job and im desperate so ill work here, but thats what happened at the movie theatre.
I don't want to be raped by my jobs anymore
I want to find somewhere i can work and like it!!!!!
Go in everyday and be like yay! work!

I saw SHARK TALE last nite! aww so cute, I was happy it wasnt exactly like Nemo, ya know underwater,fishys,bubbles,sharks...ya know

I got the green day cd, I enjoy it.

I get to see Thomas today <3 he's gonna be here until sunday! yay!

...thats about it :)

hmmm...well...

2004-09-30T13:38:59Z

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so how are things.....

2004-09-27T22:50:51Z

everything is good right now

The job is Good

school is good

the trip to oneonta was good(accually it was excellent, the most fun i had in a long time!!!! i love Julia and Ashley!<3)

Driving is awesome - freedom is ur friend

my parents are being ok right now (prob cuz im never home)

I get to see Tom in a week and a half <3

so yea thats about it
<3<3<3